My father’s love resembles ocean waves. Waves can be gentle or strong, yet regardless, they are always constant.

Ever since I was young, every time we went to a beach he’d always watch the current and find comfort within the rhythm of the sea. I remember feeling frustrated as to why he refused to go swim in the water. But he’d always jokingly dismiss it by saying he’s not a little fish like I am.

At times, he’d still watch me while I swam to make sure I was safe, and other times he would hold my hand and walk along the shore with me. We’d laugh as the waves tickle our feet and occasionally splash above our knees. Later on, Mama will run down to eagerly take hundreds of photographs with little to no breaks in between. In response, a moody kid I was to turn away at a certain point – he’d always keep smiling for her camera knowing that it made her happy. Moments like this are what feel like a gentle wave of my father’s love.

He had a playful and light-hearted tone;– We bonded with the simple moments such as– letting me hug him even though he’s a cautious germaphobe—-laying my head on his chest and listening to his heartbeat—guessing music for him on the radio— rewatching the despicable me series consistently—making silly and sometimes questionable facial expressions that lighten the mood—and he even took up the hobby to purposely annoy me by holding my stuffed teddy bear’s hostage.

As many of you may know, my dad has always had a passion for cuisine given his dedicated career to food management. Even in his freetime, I would find him watching videos of Dim Sum vlogs on Youtube or watching MasterChef. I honestly would believe that he has watched every Mikey Chen video within existence.
Despite his deep rooted love for this dish, every time we went out to eat, he’d always make sure Mama and I had a nourishing amount of food from his plate. Additionally, he’d always make sure to bring home something for us even after a long day of work. And when he had the time, he’d cook an amazing family dinner. My dad truly had a special talent and eye for culinary techniques and it was evident in the excitement I had felt every time I smelled the scent of his cooking from the kitchen.

The flow of his love expands and symbolizes strengthening waves. When I struggle to swim in the stronger current of life, his perseverance, hard work, and intelligence is something I’ve always looked up to throughout my life. Most days of the week, he usually worked long late night shifts. I always remember not even being able to grasp the fact that his usual routine was getting home at times ranging from midnight to 2 am. He was dedicated and embodied his love to support his family in every way he could.

Baba, One of my favorite memories together is actually very recently back in October when you were one of my interviewees for my personal documentary. This was also the last time I got to film you and it means the world to me. In this interview, you commented on my devoted care to treating those around me equally. Yet I hope you know that you must credit yourself as it was you who had taught me how to stand up for myself or others when it was right. At times though, this has definitely fueled our battles of wits and bickering. Regardless, at the end of the day you guided these to a resolution which taught me the value of forgiveness and consideration of others’ feelings.

Beyond that, you were always attentive to acknowledge my achievements and encourage my strengths. Without you, I wouldn’t have had as much passion and confidence to pursue a creative path. Having your Chinese zodiac as a Tiger has always deeply resonated with you because the Tiger is often characterized with traits of strong-will, determination, and leadership. Your experience and wisdom as a business leader is truly remarkable and aligns well with you. Your passion is beautifully contagious and it was as easy to see as the sun rising along the horizon.

I feel so much pride in who my dad is, how hard he has worked, and how kind his soul is. For all 16 years of my life that I got to spend with you, even though I deeply wish there was more, I truly will not compare how precious our time together was to anything else.

You were always supportive. When I returned from my business trip to visit you in the hospital after receiving the news of your brain bleed, I knew confidently in my heart that whether you heard me or not, you will always be the affectionate soul you are.

You’ve fought a long and difficult journey these past few years. And I can’t even imagine what all of this felt like in your shoes. You’ve shown perseverance and courage despite your obstacles. The one thing you truly deserve from this is to finally rest at peace, not having to worry about any more pain. You physically won’t be by our side anymore so it may look disheartening to see the shape of the wave dissipate, but that is okay. Home is where the waves crash because the water still remains. The wave was just a temporary state of the water. It will return to the ocean back to its origin and natural place. Therefore, your love will forever endure within our hearts to guide us and we will forever cherish your memory.

I will always be your little girl.

Thank you all again for coming out to celebrate the memory of my dad.